An Open Letter To Myself

Melanija,
You are someone who has gone through hell and back and lived to tell the tale. You have stepped out of your comfort zone more times than you give yourself credit for, and have turned into a warrior because of it. 

You are your own worst enemy. You cut yourself short. You hold yourself back in ways that only stunt your emotional and psychological growth. 

Remember all of the things that you have overcome to become the woman you are today. 

You left relationships you outgrew. Showed the other cheek when people left you broken and picking up the pieces alone. 

You disregarded every teacher that has told you: “I don’t think you would be the right fit for this class/major.” You honed in on the skills that make your heart sing and lived in places you only ever dreamed of. 

Pushing through the hardships of being an expat in three different countries, you were able to survive it all. 

With little knowledge of the native language you survived in the small French city of Lille, and the overwhelming nonstop life in Berlin. At times being left with no electricity, and saving enough money to buy what little groceries you could to stay afloat. You rolled with the punches when plans were constantly changing and felt you had no control over the situation. In the midst of turmoil, you built real friendships with people who like you, were just trying to find their way in the world. 

You followed your heart all the way to Belgrade, where you blossomed into a wife, all while working in the field of your dreams, that you were only writing about a few years back during your undergrad. 

You stayed true to your values, dropped everything and ran back to your family when things turned for the worst. 

You spent every day putting aside your own newlywed adventure to make the most of the time you had left with your best friend – your father. 

You soaked it all in, and attempted to process everything with an open heart, while your faith in God never dwindled.

In grieving, you found an outlet. A way to process your emotions without making it harder on yourself. You fought for jobs in your field only to feel the sting of rejection over and over again. You put aside your own dreams to ensure your husband has a smooth transition in a new world. 

You grew again in establishing a small business to keep your life afloat. 

You may be in a place where nothing seems to make sense – where you feel like you no longer understand the path that you’re on – but you have not given up on the fact that …

Everything happens for a reason, and in due time. 

Timing is everything. Things may not be playing out at the moment, but please do not forget that life has always played out for the best up until now. Even when you were at your lowest – life somehow took the steps to bring you to this point. 

You may not understand it – and that, I know is the most frustrating part of it all, but do not cut yourself short. 

You are exactly where you are supposed to be. 

Things will happen on their own – the more you force it, the more cloudy things will appear. 

You have made it this far – do not fret, I promise you are going to make it through this.  


I’ll end off with a bunch of FREE resources to get you tackling your chaos today. 

Always remember that you’re not alone, and we’re all in this battle of life. You are competent enough to face your turmoil head-on. You just gotta take the first step.

20 pages of prompts, trackers, and questions to bring you back to your core!
My newest worksheet designed to help your journey through grief. Analyse your own feelings without judgement!
Break down those pesky barriers that have been holding you back from finding the inner peace you deserve to feel!



Disclaimer:

Please note, that the information provided by TheWorryingWife, or through links to other sites, is not a substitute for medical or professional care, nor should you use the information provided in place of a visit, call, consultation or the advice of your physician or other healthcare professional.

This blog is a means of connecting and sharing experiences through grief and anxiety and how to manage at home during times of uncertainty. 

Please seek the advice and help you need from a medical professional in order to best tackle your own personal struggles and challenges. 

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