Unfortunately, this reality is inevitable for most of us at one point or another.
I recently had a really good day. Mentally I was on top of my game, productively I was ticking boxes on my checklist left, right and centre. Emotionally I was probably the best I had been in a long time. In the afternoon it hit me. I received an email about a possible job opportunity that didn’t play out in my favour. All of my hard work… all of the positivity that had protected me all day, went out the window.
The news was a little short of gut-wrenching. It immediately brought me to the mindset that has always held me back in life. I am not good enough.
So, what do I do with that information? Obviously, I haven’t given up. Obviously, I continue to pursue things that I love and want to do in life but I’ve had to reset …again.
If you’ve been keeping up with my blog at all in the past year, I reset, probably every few weeks- just because the chaos in my life will never take a break.
I’m striving – aiming high for the things I want in life. Hating myself along the way because, “…if I just reach this milestone, I will be happy…”. But I’m realizing, I can’t say that to myself, and please, be cautious if you’re anything like me.
It is one thing to have goals in life, but this constant search for the future leaves us putting the present on hold. Some of us not even realizing that life is happening right in front of us.
Soon it will be one year since I’ve started this blog. What a long way I’ve come since the beginning. I’ve managed to keep up steadily with writing while opening a small business along the way and pushed myself more times than I can count.
Maybe I’m not working in the field of my dreams right now – what all of my years abroad and schooling have set into motion – but I am working on other dreams. New dreams. New goals that I didn’t necessarily have a year ago…and let’s face it, the world around us is brand new. Would it have been wonderful to be able to take a breather from anxiously prepping for interviews and phone calls– of course. But what is the point of beating myself up?
All of this might sound very logical. It might seem like it’s pretty obvious to focus on the present, but we are human. We’re wired to strive for and reach accomplishments that leave us on a little bit of a high. I for one, am still getting used to the idea of finding that high through new forms of accomplishments. I’ve reached some pretty big milestones along the way, but now it’s time for a couple more.
If this post has at all resonated with you, I encourage you to take a moment with me. Things may not always play out in our favour, and while I struggle to always understand why this may be a good thing, I am vouching to work on the things I can control. Myself.
I’ll end off with a bunch of FREE resources to get you tackling your chaos today.
Always remember that you’re not alone, and we’re all in this battle of life. You are competent enough to face your turmoil head-on. You just gotta take the first step.
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