“She has been feeling it for a while now – that sense of awakening. There is a gentle rage simmering inside her, and it is getting stronger by the day. She will hold it close to her – she will nurture it and let it grow. She won’t let anyone take it away from her. It is her rocket fuel and finally, she is going places. She can feel it down to her very core – this is her time. She will not only climb mountains – she will move them too.”
Talk about being taken back by a quote. Everything said above resonates with every feeling of the past few months of my life. Mixed with a little grief, anxiety and chaos of course. But I continue to nurture and grow this feeling every day. Why?
Because I can.
Because I am in charge of my emotions and my reactions to life.
We all know that life is short…that it is only in our best interest to take advantage of every day we get to spend with our loved ones. But what about spending a little time with yourself.
Your thoughts, your fears and your dreams.
Organising your life the way you want to see it manifest.
Yes, things happen. Terrible, atrocious things – that put the world around us into perspective. But it’s still only up to you to take up the space you deserve in the world.
P.S. THIS WORLD NEEDS YOU
So fight for your own wellbeing. Set goals, and intentions and make sure that everything you say and do, aligns with what you want to achieve. Surround yourself with people that get you because *NEWS FLASH* someone is always going to be against you in life. Challenge yourself even when you’re convinced you will fail miserably.
I have held myself back more than I would like to admit in life. As is the case with most of us, I am my own worst enemy.
Losing my father, and the journey of grief that follows – has been my awakening.
It awakened a part of my soul that was always there but that I continuously held back.
My fear of judgment, my fears of failure, – all of it brought me to a point in my life where frankly, I was tired. I was tired of what I was feeling. I was tired of explaining myself to people who are going to think their own perspectives and exhausted of plastering on smiles with a dash of “I’m fine” every so often.
My advice to you – unleash your awakening.
Find what makes you tick and run wild with it. Don’t let the stigma of other’s opinions hold you back because at the end of the day you will be left with a bunch of “what if” ’s.
Take little steps but start today.
Keep track of every emotion you feel and particularly focus on what it is that will help you grow stronger. Surround yourself with tasks that will help you feel accomplished.
Use journals, trackers and planners to organise your thoughts, your ambitions and your intentions for the day, week, month and years ahead.
I’ll end off with a bunch of FREE resources to get you tackling your chaos today.
Always remember that you’re not alone, and we’re all in this battle of life. You are competent enough to face your turmoil head-on. You just gotta take the first step.
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